Alone time. It is to me one of life's greatest moments where you can experience peace and reflect on things. It's where you can be yourself without being judged by others. People tend to criticize everything that is weird or peculiar in this world if its autism, rheumatism or whatever they have no rite to do so because most times they do even weirder things or have things just like you or me in private so please don't judge a book by its cover. And take some time for yourself once in a while.

Sorry i have no pictures today but what i am about to tell you is very important and doesn't need a photo. A few years ago, my aunt asked me a very personal question and i was very offended by it and was very disrespectful towards her. At first i thought she shouldn't have asked me that because it was none of her business but overtime i realized that she was just concerned about my well being. So what i have to say is, sometimes people will come at you and you may think of them as being annoying or disgusting but what you need to do is first access yourself before thinking of others that way. Probably it's not that person that needs to change, it might just be you that needs to be changed. Sorry if this post offends you. 0:)

                                 

Hope is one of the things you suppose to have when dealing with tiresome situations in your life. If you stop believing in yourself then ironically there is no hope but once you try and keep believing you will make it through the problem. In my class there is a guy who does not try because he said he doesn't want to fail and I felt so sorry for him because he had no hope. It is when we try and fail with hope in believing we will make it, is when we experience true success. So never give up even if your tired, try hard and do your best to accomplish what you want. :)

                                     
Stress is a killer and when you let it take control of your life it has devastating consequences on your life and your health. Don't let it in because once it is in you tend to let it stay for a long while without realising. So for tomorrow or today have some fun be relaxed and don't let the problems stress you out.

Life is filled with surprises and it's those surprises that has me feeling excited on a morning. Sometimes problems come your way or a person who you love's way and when it comes you must not let it control you or have you feeling angry, anxious or grumpy. Go with the flow, be how shall i say a chillaxed person because when you work up yourself on lesser things you are just ultimately killing yourself of happiness. Life is way too short to be unhappy so be excited about life and show your colours, smile a bit with your head held high i.e. away from the problems. :)

Don't really have anything to say right now but just know this for now "life is a test." It's a test because you have to endure each day the hurtful comments, the fake friends, the enemies and much more. if you are weak, lazy and small minded society is not the place for you because there are people out there, not necessarily intelligent, who will come at you with all they know to bring you down and hurt you and you must be prepared for them. ;)

Sometimes i get fed up of the same old crud and  i need something brand new in my life. For example when you have old clothes and need new ones you have to throw out the old to be in with the new. This my not relate to your situation rite now but it's the small things that are the problems you need to get rid of first when trying to  remove the big ones. ;)

Ever wonder what it would be like to be someone else for a while experiencing their wealth, family etc well i have. And i learnt that i wanted that because of insecurities i was having about myself. Some people may want to know why do i want that-the answer is ,i don't know but once i broke that barrier in my life down all the rest came down with it. I was then free from feeling insecure about myself. 0:)

Mistakes every one has them from me to you or the pet you have we all make mistakes. Some small, some large but the problem is how you allow those mistakes to determine you. Seven billion people on this hunk of rock think of the worse mistakes others did compared to yours. I've made some mistakes but I am not going to let them rule my everyday life.

From addiction to sex, drugs and other stuff my addiction was pretending to be someone I was not. Everyday at school I had to be this perfect student to be an example for others but at home it was a different story it didn't matter who i tried to portray all my folks cared about was themselves and whether or not I had stuff . They neglected my emotional needs. They thought that only material things could have gotten to my heart, yes that may be true for some but that was not the case here. I had suffered being in the shadows making everyone think that everything was alright but it was not i was okay on the outside but was suffering on the inside

Last night till this morning lighting has been flashing dry in the sky and it reminded me of my life and how things would happen unexpected and you would have to get use to it. I don't know which one was worse my tremendous fear or the fact that i was reflecting on my life during a dry thunderstorm. It really comes to show that you must be prepared for anything that comes your way. :%

Sometimes i wish that life had no problems and that all your worries, mistakes and "baggage" would be gone. I know to give it to god but at times when i release it to him it's like i can't because i don't want to rely in something i can't see even though i know he's real, he's there and all powerful there is something holding me back from getting to him and i can't quite get my finger on what it is. Does that sound strange or what? :?

Like i said being antisocial is a real problem but i have the desire to make friends but when i am surrounded by people i feel so uncomfortable and excuse this but bitchy i just wish that meeting people you like was like using eharmony. Which would match you up with someone you will spontaneously like. '-'

From me being antisocial to try becoming social is actually a challenge. I want to make cool friends that i can talk to but everybody that i meet i must change my persona to become their friends. Yes i understand that you want me to be more like you but i shouldn't have to change anything about myself to be your friend. Sometimes i wonder is it better having an honest enemy or Fake friend. Ttyl :/

Well hi, i am not use to this blogging stuff but i will get the hang of it . Just want to say i made this blog for me about my daily life and how i should reflect on it. Over the past few years i have been beating up myself on how pathetic my life was. i am sure you don't want to hear about my sob story about i have to tell you. i wouldn't give you all the details but let me just say that it involves me, myself and you.